OK it's about time I re-acquainted myself with this blog. Many years ago I was very energetic and started blogs,tweets, fb, Instagram etc but over the years apathy set it. Apathy is supposed to be a Parkinson's symptom and it is the worst or a close second with insomnia.
It has now been 15 years since I was diagnosed and it is starting to take its toll a little. I am definitely not as nimble as I used to be BUT a lot has happened. I am now 63, still single and my daughter is 23. I say I am still single but I don't know how I would accommodate a man in my life now. My husband died 10 years ago now and whilst I dabbled in the 'oldies' online dating , I found nothing but grief and peculiar or depressed men although they were interesting. I couldn't accommodate anyone into my life because of the Parkinson's. If you are diagnosed when you are already living with someone that is different as you care for each other but I can't see anyone would want to 'take' me on.
That used to depress me but now I have accepted it as the way things are.
This year and last year have been years of grief, losing my mother, then father, then younger cousin as well as three friends. Grief sets you back with or with out Parkinson's but it seems to intensify the symptoms.
However one gets tired of waking up feeling like shit so I have started a 'plan', At least this way it feels as though one is taking control of the beast.
First of all I am getting the bureaucratic things in place, applying for every government benefit I am entitled to, drawing up health care plans with the public medical insurance scheme, getting disabled parking stickers etc etc. Dealing with govt dpts is a looong and frustrating process but I feel I have to prepare for a time when I am a lot less mobile.
I am also getting back into exercise after suffering from a number of injuries - a sore hip (very painful) and equally painful plantar fasciitus. These injuries are indirectly a result of Parkinson's imo because of the stiffness of my muscles. I feel as if I am coming out of a long tunel and I can now see the light.
The thing is one has to push one's self because even if you feel ery sore in the morning on awakening you know you will feel better after exercise.
It has now been 15 years since I was diagnosed and it is starting to take its toll a little. I am definitely not as nimble as I used to be BUT a lot has happened. I am now 63, still single and my daughter is 23. I say I am still single but I don't know how I would accommodate a man in my life now. My husband died 10 years ago now and whilst I dabbled in the 'oldies' online dating , I found nothing but grief and peculiar or depressed men although they were interesting. I couldn't accommodate anyone into my life because of the Parkinson's. If you are diagnosed when you are already living with someone that is different as you care for each other but I can't see anyone would want to 'take' me on.
That used to depress me but now I have accepted it as the way things are.
This year and last year have been years of grief, losing my mother, then father, then younger cousin as well as three friends. Grief sets you back with or with out Parkinson's but it seems to intensify the symptoms.
However one gets tired of waking up feeling like shit so I have started a 'plan', At least this way it feels as though one is taking control of the beast.
First of all I am getting the bureaucratic things in place, applying for every government benefit I am entitled to, drawing up health care plans with the public medical insurance scheme, getting disabled parking stickers etc etc. Dealing with govt dpts is a looong and frustrating process but I feel I have to prepare for a time when I am a lot less mobile.
I am also getting back into exercise after suffering from a number of injuries - a sore hip (very painful) and equally painful plantar fasciitus. These injuries are indirectly a result of Parkinson's imo because of the stiffness of my muscles. I feel as if I am coming out of a long tunel and I can now see the light.
The thing is one has to push one's self because even if you feel ery sore in the morning on awakening you know you will feel better after exercise.
